Sundays

Today, like every other Sunday, I spent the day with my family. We (sister and I) went to our parents house for our weekly fest. My mother happens to be an amazing cook...After pigging out, we went SHOPPING!!! Just like childhood days, shopping has been and probably will be the best past time of our family. No wonder I'm a shopaholic and have major issues saving money. I'm not shopping in 09...hahaha. I already spent $100 this weekend. $40 on a sweater...it was on sale though! $40 at target, and then odds and ends...

Joel was angry at me this weekend. He knows that I am seeing Ted, but I don't always tell him when I hang out with him. I hate dealing with it. He knows why I see him and has to accept it because...well, he married. I want to get married and have kids one day- i'm not waiting around forever. Anyways, I told him that I was going clubbing with my girlfriends, and I didn't call him. He has forgiven, but he was whining about it earlier. Ted actually stayed over. I think maybe the 4th or 5th time in our relationship. I really like Ted, parts of me believe that I may love him. Is it possible to be in love with two people at the same time?

Ted is an only child, and he really acts like it. I have struggled with the relationship. But for some reason I don't want to give him up. He is tall and beautiful. He is shy but funny, and he kisses like no other...I just wish that he would want to fuck already. He is on meds that give him a limp dick, but go to the dr, already and get something to help with it. Grrr.