All about Ted

Last night, Ted and I hung out. It was actually a very nice evening...and to my surprise he actually stayed over. He hasn't in about 3 weeks. We had a really good discussion about our relationship...aka about how we need to have sex. It has been 7 months!!! He is going to go and see his doctor about a magic pill. For me, it is the only way that our relationship will be real to me. That I be able to commit to him with no one else in the picture. I know that I'm a horrible person for saying that, trust me I do.

I can see myself with Ted in the long run. I know that he cares so much about me, I can care so much for him too. It has been a slow process trying to get him out of his shell, but he is coming out, and it makes me so happy.

When I was younger, I would picture myself being with someone like Ted: tall, thin, intelligent, so handsome, brown hair and eyes, caring, genuine, giving, supportive, dependable, loyal trustworthy, fun, hard working. He got it all! If we could just take care of the major issue that I have, I think we would be great!

I told him that I more then like him...and it's true. I've known that since October, when we went to the Angels and Air waves concert. During the song Breathe- I knew.

A blue, black shade of love.
Sent from above.
My hands are tied, two worlds alone,
And this I know.
Your breath's like wine,
And just like clouds, my skin crawls.
It's so divine, the sky it glows with fields of light.

Did you know that I love you?
Come and lay with me.
I love you.
And honestly, I love you.
You make me feel alive.
And I'll love you,
Until the end of time.

My hands shake clasped with fear,
As you come near
To say goodnight, just like a dove.
A peaceful sign.
To help us by.
As you come in.
Let this begin.
Stars fall like dust, our lips will touch.
We speak too much.

Did you know that I love you?
Come and lay with me.
I love you.
And honesty, I love you.
You make me feel alive.
And I'll love you,
Until the end of time.

Did you know that I love you?
Come and lay with me.
I love you.
And honestly, I love you.
You make me feel alive.
And I'll love you,
Until the end of time.

I've got a lot to say, if you will let me
It's always hard, when you're around me
But here right now, there's interest in your eyes
So hear me out, and hear this the first time

That I... love you (come and lay with me)
That I... love you (and honestly)
And I... love you (you make me feel alive)
That I... love you
Till the end of time

Last night, holding and kissing him, I was in bliss. It's going to be hard not seeing him again until Wednesday...for our Lost date. He is the one who got me hooked!

Warm fuzzies...

I will just have to cuddle with Jakey...he gave him to me on valentine's day until I can cuddle with Ted again. I love stuffed animals! He is so soft and smooth, and he even sheds like a real puppy!