What to do about Ted

I hung out with Ted this evening...
He is so nice, and so cute, and I really like him- I just don't know how much longer I can take it. I feel like there is something wrong with me- why else would we have not fucked yet? I wanted to try to turn him on, so I started to caress his leg- gently touching it up and down...and he grabs my hand. I asked him if I was tickling him and he said no, then I asked if me touching him made him uncomfortable and he said no. Then I asked why he was so quick to grab my hand and move it- he reply was just that he felt like grabbing my hand...fat chance.

There are complications in his life right now- stress from work and family, where I do not feel right telling him it's over. I know he likes me, and I like him too. I just want to Fuck already. See if it is worth going on with the relationship. And I will not sleep with two men at the same time- I've done that before and I will not allow it again. So maybe it's better that we haven't because I still get it from Joel. God Damn when did I become such a whorebag. Honestly, what am I doing with my life. I should not be with Joel, I know it. I just can't give him up. It's like the Buckcherry song "you crazy bitch, but you fuck so good." Plus Joel buys me nice presents and takes me to nice dinners, and concerts, and plays. Glad to know that I'm also a gold digger...I just keep getting better and better! I never realized how much of a bitch I really am.